I filed for divorce and left my 18-year marriage two years ago. I was in an unhappy and unhealthy marriage which became unbearable during the Covid crisis. I had completely lost myself by this point, combined with the anxiety of Covid and being forced to stay inside with someone who I realized I had done everything I could to make it work. In September 2020, I decided that I wanted to remove my hijab, which I had worn for 5 years in a bold attempt to rescue my marriage after we moved into our new home. During this time, I tried to truly fit myself into the religion, but I always felt like an outsider and isolated with not many friends and dwindling confidence. I was ignoring my needs to make something work that should have ended a long time ago. I was convinced that if I was doing everything that would make him happy, then our marriage would become bulletproof. In reality, all I was doing was pushing my true self further away and allowing my co-dependency to rob me of true love and happiness. I had no idea about self-love, because if I did, I would not have allowed myself to stay so long. When I made the decision to leave, I was filled with anxiety about the divorce process and the future of my daughter and me. There was so much to consider, and I was overwhelmed with fear of doing something so life-changing. Amongst all this fear was my inner knowing that I had to do this to save myself. I had ignored my intuition for so long, and it was screaming at me to do this even when it felt terrifying. I relied on my faith and inner strength that this was the right decision for our future. The first 6 months were liberating but filled with challenges navigating life alone as a single working mum, exacerbated by the death of my mother-in-law a few months later and the tragic earthquake in Turkey that followed a few months after. I was not prepared for the level of grief that came with these consecutive events. I quickly discovered that as I was alone and responsible for everything, I was also responsible for my own healing. Determined to accept any help available, I embarked on a diverse therapeutic journey. I was offered telephone therapy which helped me identify my complex PTSD and my feelings of guilt following my divorce, death of my mother in law and the tragedy of the earthquake. I later tried EDMR, timeline and hypnotherapy to cope with the feelings of fear and anxiety with the multiple losses. EMDR brought unexpected clarity, the rapid movements of my eyes mirroring the un-ravelling of tangled memories. Timeline therapy revealed patterns I hadn’t seen before, while hypnotherapy guided me into the depths of my subconscious. In between these sessions, I explored Reiki treatments, which helped me unblock my energy and release my trapped emotions. I would spend time in nature to soothe my soul and I learnt to listen to my body, understanding its needs and respond with compassion. I quickly found a new network of friends and rebuilt my life slowly but surely, investing in my health and body by doing regular exercise and eating better. I found that helping others in my job who were worse off helped me put my life in perspective and gave me a purpose. I increased my faith in God and the peace and comfort that this brought me in difficult times. Overtime, I found that my confidence returned and my resilience became extremely high while I navigated my mindset so I could overcome the strong emotions of grief. I learned to embrace myself fully and know that I am enough exactly the way I am. I know now that I have no one to please but myself. I know that the right partner will come when I am truly loving myself and my independence. In the meantime, I am using all of my pain of the past and turning it into power, putting myself first and building the dream life I always wanted for myself but lost by staying in a place that kept me playing small. I am now living a life that is aligned with my true self. I have more energy than ever because I have created a beautiful independent life for myself and for my daughter. I am more confident in my abilities and have overcome fear on many levels through faith in myself and God's plans for me. I am ready for the right partner who will support my dreams and bring out the best in me. I am pouring into myself and focusing on building a beautiful life in every single way - the best really is yet to come! Divorce is not a failure, and I am so glad I went through this as the other side of it is so much better. If you have recently gone through, or are going through a divorce and resonate with my story and are ready to rebuild your confidence and self worth and redesign your future for the best chapter of your life so far, then feel free to send me a message. I would love to help you on your journey to more.
I believe that the inner child holds an infinite range of expression, creativity and jubilance for life and no matter what happens no one can take your inner child away. When we have an unhealed inner child and we can unknowingly bring those issues into a relationship. Healing this will benefit both you and your partner.
I offer bespoke coaching that will be designed to suit the needs of the client. I am very aware that not everyone can communicate verbally or tap into their emotions easily and that is why I created a hybrid approach to healing using different modalities. I am a very calm and intuitive healer, and I am also a firm believer that everyone has the ability to heal themselves fully with the right support.
I have healed myself through past trauma in my childhood and teens and more recently a divorce and sudden deaths in the family from a natural disaster resulting in PTSD.